Like things weren't interesting enough having Elan come so early...... my mom had just come to Jerome to spend a few days with us (when Collin first went back to work) on Elan's one-week birthday--Sunday, and Monday morning all the heart attack stuff happened with my dad. About 12 hours after she had arrived I found myself sobbing on the couch trying to get control of myself so Ashlyn wouldn't freak out, while my mom was racing back to Idaho Falls to get there for my dad's emergency open-heart surgery. The next week was a complete blur and not something I'm ever going to blog about. Needless to say it was a huge rollercoaster that ended with the most devastation I've ever, ever felt. There were thousands of tender mercies along the way that I might get around to listing someday, but it's all very tender and fresh and still really, really hard. And not stuff to blog about, you know. Believe me, my journal has seen more time with me lately than ever before.
Anyway, the blur included several trips to Idaho Falls. Once I took Elan (he was 10 days old the day we left) by myself and left Ashlyn with friends/Collin while he worked half days, once I went all by myself, once we went as a family. Elan and I got a LOT of quality bonding time together, especially in the middle of the night, during those trips! One really bright spot was that all my siblings got to meet Elan way earlier than they would have otherwise. We all spent a lot of time together during one week in the ICU waiting room. I almost got pictures of his first time with each of them:
Auntie
Alex
Sam
No one but this was the first time he slept with his arms up like that!
And one of the best little meetings--his cousin Benton! He belongs to Hayley and Cory and was born just 2 weeks before Elan! First 2 grandbaby boys! I can't help but think that part of the reason we waited for Elan so long was that he was meant to be close to this little cousin guy.
Some nice pictures
Alex again... wow Alex I didn't realize you had been such a baby hog during this trip. ;)
Tara
And Grandma.
Having this brand new baby around really softened things, for me at least. It also made things a lot more real and hard in a lot of ways. Definitely a time I had to put on big girl pants a lot more than I wanted to, and also felt like I was a bigger baby than I'd ever been. Heavenly Father's timing is for a reason.
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